Second Life...

No, I'm not talking about the game (an online RPG, massive player style).  I'm talking about my life.  I'm supposedly getting another chance.  I should be moving back to New Orleans, soon.  It's been a long, rough, year.  I've made a lot of decisions based on the information I had at the time that were good decisions.  Today's life lesson is this kids:


Sometimes, BAD things happen for GOOD reasons.


The concepts we have of good and evil are as flawed as the system who gave them to us.  This blog is even kind-of an example.  I started it when I was depressed, suicidal, and the only thing keeping me going was the great p.J. Maximus (the kitten I had to give up).  I tear up thinking about her, and there have been posts made and set to release to inform you all of my death (thank the gods that you never saw those).  However, Single Dad Laughing's blog made me realize that in the process of being suicidal, I have the means to share with other people.  Maybe, even help them.


I don't advertise a lot how much people mean to me.  Really, I am extremely hard on most of the people around me.  The public generally assumes I am being a bitch or that I hate the world.  Neither is true.  I am hard on people I care about, or people I see the potential in.  That hardness is though-out, methodical, and purpose-fulfilling (not just purpose-driven) in order to make them the best them they can be.  I do it according to their own hopes as much as possible, I don't apologize for it, and I do it because NO ONE ELSE WILL.  I would see it as a personal failure not to pull out every stop to help someone I love.*


Recently, in a conversation about a rapist I know, a friend of mine asked me why I was so upset.  I didn't get it.   He said, "You've never been hurt by this guy.  Why is it so important to you that he isn't allowed to do these things again."  I started crying sometime in my response.  "Because the people he hurts?  They can't or won't stand up for themselves.  SOMEONE HAS TO DO IT!"  It left him touched.


I share that because it is why I'm hard on people.  Until the world is at a place where people challenge themselves, I'll be the one to give them what they need.  This is the underlying theme in my life, and will be what I build my second-life on.  No more distractions.